Kiss Kiss Bang Bang

11 Feb

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Valentine's Day pumps, Italian leather, red satin dress, Valentine's Day lingerie, little red dress, kiss kiss bang bang
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Valentine's Day pumps, Italian leather, red satin dress, Valentine's Day lingerie, little red dress, kiss kiss bang bang
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Valentine's Day pumps, Italian leather, red satin dress, Valentine's Day lingerie, little red dress, kiss kiss bang bang
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Valentine's Day pumps, Italian leather, red satin dress, Valentine's Day lingerie, little red dress, kiss kiss bang bang
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Valentine's Day pumps, Italian leather, red satin dress, Valentine's Day lingerie, little red dress, kiss kiss bang bang
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Valentine's Day pumps, Italian leather, red satin dress, Valentine's Day lingerie, little red dress, kiss kiss bang bang
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Valentine's Day pumps, Italian leather, red satin dress, Valentine's Day lingerie, little red dress, kiss kiss bang bang
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Valentine's Day pumps, Italian leather, red satin dress, Valentine's Day lingerie, little red dress, kiss kiss bang bang

While I think Valentine’s Day is a completely reasonable excuse to get drunk and naked, I also stand firm in my belief that considering it an actual holiday is a bit of a stretch. Maybe I’m just being bitter…really, to each their their own, I suppose. However, my personal opinion is that this day adds unnecessary pressure to our already stressful lives. Managing to stay in a healthy relationship is difficult enough, so why make it even harder?

For the singles out there February 14th is, best case scenario, depressing. The older we get, the more likely we are to fall victim to triggers that ignite erratic behavior which could land us in  jail, rehab or surrounded by cats. SO many cats.

If you do happen to be  in a relationship, which I actually typically have been in the past, Valentine’s Day is still annoying. Seriously, aren’t there already enough fucking holidays to celebrate? Like birthdays and anniversaries, and Christmas, Hanukkah, etc?! Do we really need another one? Not just that, but one we must share with all the other couples?

If a designated date is required to serve as a reminder that that you are in love, perhaps you, umm, aren’t (just saying). And, since on this day, everyone is supposed to be EXTRA “in love” you better plan way ahead, because if you don’t you won’t get a reservation anywhere and the night will most likely end in tears. It is just seems like such an unnecessary burden! Perhaps this is why I have set the bar quite low and my idea of a dream date is going to McDonald’s with a flask in my bag and getting a cheeseburger Happy Meal. If he picks up the check, rad! If we happen to hold hands…super romantic. And at least I know we’ll be in good company.

The way I  see it, men and women should buy flowers and chocolates for their significant others when they feel like it…which is hopefully not never (if that’s the case perhaps this IS actually an important reminder to inform your deprived companion that you sort of care about them, when you aren’t too busy forgetting they exist).

I also think that it is our god-given right to pick and choose when we’d like to go down on one another…something that, again, shouldn’t be a task. Sex is supposed to be fun, no?

Anyway, while I am still inclined to boycott this romantic spectacle, and vote against Cupid, we all know votes don’t matter at this point. So take it, you stupid little cherub, and bring Hallmark right along with you. I’m throwing in the towel. There are bigger fish to fry, after all.

In conclusion, I have decided to quit with the cynicism (starting now), treat myself to a fancy hotel in Paris I can’t totally afford, and wear a red, satin negligee, while prancing around in my new favorite Italian leather pumps…they’re appropriately decorated with pretty pink and red lips that happen to perfectly match the ones on my face. Like I said, to each their own! Happy…whatever. xoxo

*head to toe: Stone & Strand princess cut diamond earrings, Chanel Rouge Allure lipstick, ASOS red satin pleated nightie, Baldinini pumps in red pattern nappa

photos by Gus Melton at Hotel Baume in Paris

Cheeseburger Love Affair

9 Feb

Over the cheesy gift roundups. Not in the mood to share a tear-jerking novella. No romantic poetry. Sure, I do indulge in these things from time to time – guilty as charged. But NOT today…

Middle fingers up to Cupid and Hallmark. Here’s to ditching labels and eye-rolling at fake holidays. For my ladies who’d prefer a night in with a bottle of red, or an evening out with gal pals and loads of laughter, over a cliché bouquet of roses…

HAPPY FUCKING VALENTINE’S DAY!

*wearing: Chanel Rouge Allure lipstick, Satin Maxi Slip Dress, pleated velvet dress from ASOS (similar styles HERE), black low-cut maxi dress from Reformation, Baldinini pumps in red pattern nappa, reading How To Murder Your Life by Cat Marnell

Video by Gus Melton at Hotel Baume Paris

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Scent Of A Woman

11 Jan

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Fictions perfume, floral fragrances, vintage floral kimono, beautiful brand packaging, love stories
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Fictions perfume, floral fragrances, vintage floral kimono, beautiful brand packaging, love stories
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Fictions perfume, floral fragrances, vintage floral kimono, beautiful brand packaging, love stories
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Fictions perfume, floral fragrances, vintage floral kimono, beautiful brand packaging, love stories
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Fictions perfume, floral fragrances, vintage floral kimono, beautiful brand packaging, love stories
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Fictions perfume, floral fragrances, vintage floral kimono, beautiful brand packaging, love stories

As a hopeless romantic, traveler and lover of light, beautiful fragrances, I immediately fell for Fictions, and the stunning products this one-of-a-kind collection has to offer.

Fictions, publishers of fine perfume, partners with remarkable creatives to conjure the scent and story of a woman in LOVE. Intriguing, collectible and eminently wearable, the fragrance brand’s editions are set in the iconic cities of London, Paris, Los Angeles, Sydney and its latest edition, Istanbul.

Not only did I connect with Fictions for their classic-yet-unique fragrances, but all the cities (Istanbul aside) are places where I have either lived, been in love, or both. The romantic stories associated with each bring me back to magical times on a personal level. It’s not only clever but poetic, in a way – especially since scent is so closely tied to memory.

Beyond that, their packaging is exceptional. As a marketer and someone who works on branding businesses, the way in which Fictions has successfully created a product that’ll truly take you on a journey, rather than simply having a pretty scent, is exceptional. The boxes alone are practically collectors items. Mine reside on a shelf in my apartment, right next to some of my favorite novels and love stories – just where they belong.

Currently I’am visiting London, so I brought my Mini Eau de Parfum for both this city and Paris, where I’m headed shortly (perfect for travel – same with the Hand Cream).

If you care to join in on some spontaneous adventures, be sure to follow along here and on Instagram, where I’ll be documenting my European wanderings. And check out all the amazing Fictions products, sold exclusively at Anthropology. You literally can’t go wrong with any of them (as you can see, Ringo agrees).

 

One Foot In Front Of The Other

28 Dec

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Vintage oversized sweater, printed grandpa sweater, cutoff shorts, navy flats, messy bun

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Vintage oversized sweater, printed grandpa sweater, cutoff shorts, navy flats, messy bun

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Vintage oversized sweater, printed grandpa sweater, cutoff shorts, navy flats, messy bun

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Vintage oversized sweater, printed grandpa sweater, cutoff shorts, navy flats, messy bun

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Vintage oversized sweater, printed grandpa sweater, cutoff shorts, navy flats, messy bun

I have been angry for months. Am I entitled to these feelings? I think so. Has it been constructive? Not particularly.

I grew up incapable of staying angry at loved ones for more than 24 hours (and my family and friends could attest to that). Conflict resolution, for me, has typically consisted of a convo along the lines of, “OK, lets talk about it, I love you, how about we hug it out, this was a stupid argument, can we go get 3 bottles of wine now, please?” That girl changed, and it has been really hard to keep my sadness and resentment under control lately. However, it has come time to release the negative energy and let in the light, if you will.  Not because I forgive, necessarily, but I am ready to forget and move forward. Wear some cute, comfortable shoes and put one foot in front of the other, prepared to take life as it comes.

Christmas came and went, and while it’s always a bittersweet time of year, for whatever reason, at the end of the day I am very grateful for my life…for my family and all of the beauty that surrounds me. I want to enjoy the blessings I have been given, and celebrate. There is enough animosity going around right now, and my “problems” are pretty small in the grand scheme of things. Not only that, but as a result of recent projects I am seeing how badly the world needs LOVE and support. Why waste my time hating and hurting, when I could be spreading joy, happiness, and focusing more on what’s actually important? 

I am working with a small team to help an amazing mother of four, who is very ill with the rare disease, scleroderma. Please check out Stephanie’s story. Any contribution counts. Social sharing is just as important as monetary donations – so please, please join us in helping to spread the word for a family, and friend, in need. It would mean the world to this awe-inspiring crew…the kids need their mamma. Just click here and share the video on your Facebook page. <3 Christmas may have come and gone, but the season for giving is year-round. 

As humans we must not forget how important it is to feel. Not just for ourselves, but others as well. Feeling comes with both positive and negative emotions, naturally, and we shouldn’t necessarily shy away any of it – we were built this way for a reason. But we should also try our hardest to channel our feelings, and do something good with them. Life is short, and it is also what we make of it. Be good to others. LOVE. If you don’t know how, now is as good a time as any to try and figure it out.

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.” -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Anger is a burden that will only set us back, as a community…LOVE and KINDNESS are what ultimately define us as human beings. We will experience trials and tribulations but we don’t have to let them derail us. I, for one, have decided to make an early NY resolution and kick my roadblocks aside, and continue to move forward. Being able to do so while wearing cute shoes is a bonus (thank you, Aerosoles!). You’ll likely find that in letting go of anger, more joy and contentment will come into your heart. When you are filled with love, you will give off love…and that is what we need these days – people who can be kind, who want to help, and will do what they can to work toward building a better world.

*head to toe: vintage grandpa sweater, LNA tank, Rag & Bone cutoff shorts, Aerosoles Trend Setter ballet flats

Photos by Jonothan Mariande

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It’s In The Bag

21 Dec

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New York City, LA, SF: Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: In the bag, daily blogger essentials, burgundy leather tote, VUSE Vibe vape

I am one of those gals who never leaves home without all her essentials in tow…a notorious “bag lady”, if you will. As a result, I’ve become a huge fan of oversized totes and enormous satchels, which I jam-pack to the brim with personal necessities to kick off busy days that, oftentimes, feel never-ending. And it all starts by being fully prepared for whatever madness might get thrown my way.

From lip balms and lotions to a good pair of sunnies, my cell phone, keys, wallet, cigarettes (or, lately, my favorite vape, VUSE VIBE), and of course a quality notebook so I can document my miscellaneous, meandering thoughts while on-the-move. I do my best to show up, chin held high, and ready for action…that’s how I manage to run a growing business. Gotta learn how to hustle, especially if you decide to go out on your own!

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: VUSE Vibe vape, ecig, what's in my bag, velour skirt, leather notebook, fresh cut flowers, best headphones, daily essentials

Life doesn’t slow down, so we must manage to keep up in order to avoid a crash. One way I’ve been able to do so, after bouncing around nonstop for 12 years and living in four of the craziest cities in the world, is by making sure I am stocked and ready to conquer every time I step foot outside the door.

Yep, I am a smoker, and have been for years. But VUSE VIBE does genuinely offer a different experience compared to traditional smokes. To be clear, I am not encouraging anyone to begin vaping, but if you are a smoker looking for an alternative to cigarettes, try out VUSE VIBE’s nectar flavor – one of their many delightful options – it’s pretty much the bomb. And I love how simple it is spin on a new flavor to match my mood…a solid variety!

Bottom line is, here’s what I carry around to keep me ready for anything. I’ve learned to do what I’ve gotta do while trying to stay as classy as possible. Be chic, sleek, discreet, and smell. And don’t forget the other important things you need, as previously mentioned. Especially a notebook! We’ll actually want to remember these hectic moments one day. Or at least have our experiences written down somewhere so we can reference them later on in life when things start to feel dull and chaos becomes a thing of the past.

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Only Fools Are Satisfied

18 Dec

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Madonna Inn, Austrian Suite, Marie Antoinette, silk nightie, ombre hair, pajama photoshoot

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Madonna Inn, Austrian Suite, Marie Antoinette, silk nightie, ombre hair, pajama photoshoot

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Madonna Inn, Austrian Suite, Marie Antoinette, silk nightie, ombre hair, pajama photoshoot

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Madonna Inn, Austrian Suite, Marie Antoinette, silk nightie, ombre hair, pajama photoshoot

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Madonna Inn, Austrian Suite, Marie Antoinette, silk nightie, ombre hair, pajama photoshoot

For the record, there is very little planning that goes into my blog posts, and they all mean something to me. These photos were shot after a sleepless night I spent working (I happen to suffer from insomnia), while on a recent road trip up the coast with a very special person who I am lucky to have in my life. My smeared makeup was the result of an unwashed face from the evening before when I got dolled up in over-the-top attire and ate a steak with 3 martinis while watching an older couple conquer the empty dance floor. So much fun.

What you see here is a series of small documentations from real experiences and a glimpse into my weird world.

I shoot on the fly, and wear what I would be wearing if I didn’t have a blog. Yes, you will find a sponsored post here and there, but even though I am dirt ass broke at the moment, I would never promote something insincerely.

I started OnTheRacks almost nine years ago, and it has always been a side project I’ve maintained because I genuinely love it. I will never be the most popular gal on the internet for multiple reasons, one of them being that I’m not willing to sacrifice my authenticity. This is a platform where I can be who I am and share my experiences with likeminded, down-to-earth individuals who might enjoy reading about some crazy girl’s life because, to an extent, it resembles their own. I just want to keep it real and hopefully provide others with a reminder that they are incredible by encouraging self-acceptance…flaws and all. Nobody’s perfect.

Perhaps these photos were wonderfully shot, when the light was just right, and sure, it may look like I am living in a fairytale sometimes. But smoke, mirrors and fine photography aside, this incredible, golden headboard is actually made of plastic, and the hotel is in the middle of nowhere and as kitschy as they come. However, that is what makes it so charming, in my opinion! IMPERFECTION.

The Madonna Inn is about fantasy, themes, and transporting yourself to a different world, where you can temporarily escape reality, with its gaudy decor and imaginary elegance. I am not Marie fucking Antoinette, but I certainly felt like it for a hot second while rolling around in this extravagant bedroom setting, wearing a silk negligee, and being told I am beautiful.

People frequently message me with congratulatory notes about my “success” but, while I do feel proud of my accomplishments to date and am always flattered by the kind words, I still have a long way to go before I’d call it that. We’ll all get there, so long as we remain passionate and willing to work hard.

At the same time, these past few months have been wearing away at my soul for a number of reasons (I’ve touched upon a few of them already here and here). Along with kind comments, I also encounter animosity for “sharing too much”. This is my platform and I don’t feel bad for expressing my emotions, in a respectful, appropriate manner. For those who have felt offended, please know that I am suffocating under a mountain of pain and betrayal, with many details that do remain undisclosed, because I have class, respect, and some dignity (though I was also robbed of quite a bit, to be frank). I am human. And I happen to be a human who is cordial, intelligent, loving, forgiving and thoughtful. I won’t apologize for having a voice. If you don’t want to read what I have to say…don’t.

I like to take the high road, as my amazing parents taught me to do, knowing that not every scenario will work out in my favor.  I cannot complain about life – I’m no different from anyone else who faces ongoing, day-to-day hardships. I’ve put my photos and thoughts on the internet for my own reasons, but that doesn’t make me superior, nor does it make me right, per se…but I am still allowed to share them.

When I think about my friends, family, colleagues and even strangers I encounter, I like to believe that we are all innately kind-hearted at our cores, and just trying to get by…we’re doing our best.

As Billy Joel says in the song posted above, “You can’t be everything you want to be before your time.” My friend Liz also describes the message I’m trying to share perfectly in her Instagram bio, “Don’t compare your behind the scenes life with other people’s highlight reel.” So true.

Lately I feel the internet is encouraging a distorted view about what life should be like, rather serving as a platform for inspiration, support, and open conversation – something we need now more than ever. There are many bloggers who post staged content, laced with glitter, portraying a false reality of what life should be. Superiority complexes are masked by illusions of rainbows and butterflies, and updates about cupcakes are hypnotizing followers for the sake of getting that extra “like”. But there are also a handful of content creators who aren’t playing that game. It bums me out that there’s now a stigma attached to the whole thing.

I have a therapist in NYC who I do video chats with on the regs. She keeps me “sane”. A friend asked me the other day if I thought she needed to see a psychologist because she continuously pushes away men and, when meeting new people, she’ll try and and scope out a dark side before looking for their light. She also happens to be one of the most grounded, level-minded people I know, but my answer was a solid “yes”. I feel that all of us can benefit from talking about our lives with someone qualified to provide insights as to why we might be feeling certain things or acting out of character. Sometimes it is hard to pin down what is triggering specific emotions, and it’s good to vocalize what’s going on in our busy minds. Not only to help figure out why you feel a certain ways, but also what you can do to improve and live a happier life. Nobody should feel a need to trap their demons…it’ll only make them multiply. So whether you choose to do so on the internet, with a parent, sibling, friend, behind closed doors with a professional, or all of the above…vent.

I have been going to therapy for as long as I can remember, but it wasn’t until I met the right woman, back when I was living in the City about 3 years ago, that I finally got it. Finding a good shrink is seriously a lot like dating – it took me ages to meet “my match”. But now that I have it’s significantly transformed my general outlook. She’s the reason I started writing (and, sure, sometimes rambling). Now I have a closet filled with journals, and some of the content isn’t even that bad. I’m also working on a bigger literary project as, thanks to her, writing has become my favorite pastime.

To sum it up, remember that you are unique and rad, just as you are. But stay grounded and acknowledge the things  you want to improve upon. Don’t stop trying. We all have weaknesses, and the ones who pretend they don’t are probably in a lot more trouble than those who aren’t scared to admit it.

Don’t be ashamed to express yourself! If you’re genuinely happy, awesome and congratulations. But if you want more, don’t settle with where you’re at because that’s where society says you’re supposed to be. Forget the rules. Something or someone good will come along, trust me. If you live with bright eyes, an open heart, ambition, honesty, love (for yourself and others), and an ongoing desire to move forward, eventually the broken pieces will fall into place.

Keep your passion. Keep your pride. Keep on dreaming. And remember that “only fools are satisfied”. You aren’t a fucking fool.

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Keep On Truckin’

1 Dec

Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Denim on denim, boyfriend jeans, oversized jacket, vinatage truck, west coast roadtrip
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Denim on denim, boyfriend jeans, oversized jacket, vinatage truck, west coast roadtrip
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Denim on denim, boyfriend jeans, oversized jacket, vinatage truck, west coast roadtrip
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Denim on denim, boyfriend jeans, oversized jacket, vinatage truck, west coast roadtrip
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Denim on denim, boyfriend jeans, oversized jacket, vinatage truck, west coast roadtrip
Los Angeles, NYC Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Denim on denim, boyfriend jeans, oversized jacket, vinatage truck, west coast roadtrip

I have been doing some personal reflection lately, after falling into a somewhat disgruntled frame of mind — a state of being which has actually become an unwelcome tradition for me this time of year. It tends to start out that way, at least…

When it comes to my personality, I’m stubborn and far from complacent. In describing myself as such I am not being self-deprecating — the opposite, in fact. When things go wrong, I do everything possible to try and find a solution. 2016, however, has probably been my strangest year to date (and trust me when I say there have been some pretty weird ones). The past 11 months were filled with experiences I will never be able to comprehend or resolve. Some of them terrible and some of them beautiful beyond words. Throughout the process, I have learned to accept that not every problem has a solution and that, in itself, is a big step. Also, I am now capable of finding joy in the “little things” I used to disregard. Don’t let a day go by without looking around and appreciating what you have. Sometimes its the fleeting moments and unexpected memories that pull you through tough times.

When I find I’m falling into a rut, I have to credit myself for never ceasing to at least make an attempt to do something about it. I’ve traveled — roaming around Europe, as I did last year, or taking a road trip, like I have done many times before. Nothing clears my mind and helps me organize my thoughts more than going on a road trip – driving anywhere, everywhere, nowhere…taking in new surroundings and getting to know inspiring people on a deeper level, along the way.

Everyone sees life through a different lens, and has gone through something you have not. I am a firm believer that we can never stop learning from others, if we approach the world with an unbiased mind and a welcoming heart. You’ll meet the right ones when you least expect it. Maybe they’ll open your eyes to an important part of life you were previously blind to. Perhaps you’ll find yourself revived by a story that moves you or be inspired by their unique approach to viewing the world and overcoming hardships.

While I by no means look forward to this recurring loss of creative energy, inevitably accompanied by an indescribable feeling of emptiness, I must say that each time I have gone through it (and done something about it) in the past, I have come out more revitalized and prepared for what is yet to come — in life, love, loss and any other unpredicted twist or turn.

Life is fucking weird, and it’s also what we make of it. So I decided to head out, yet again, on a random journey…starting with a night the hills of Malibu, sleeping in a Mongolian yurt at Great Spirits Ranch (highly recommend). After that I continued up North for a week and a half…spontaneously stopping at a couple familiar spots, while also seeing a few incredible new ones. I find it best to steer clear of redundancy. Travel and taking in the new will help fill those empty gaps and put you back on the right path, even if it is a different one than you expected to be on.

I learned a lot along the way and look forward to sharing more about the rest of my journey…stay tuned!

*head to toe: Ray-ban Clubmaster sunglasses, Citizens of Humanity boyfriend jacket, The 5th Brooklyn watch, T by Alexander Wang Superfine v-neck tee, Citizens of Humanity Melanie wide-leg crop jeans, Jacob Ankle boot via Urban Outfitters, Ringo the Dog via @RingoKnows