Sometimes you zig, and sometimes you zag. Sometimes things line up just how you’d like for them to. Other times, it feels like any form of alignment is completely unattainable.
People say don’t wear black and blue together. Or brown and black. Or brown and blue. I say fuck it, and wear what you want. Create your own color wheel and do whatever it takes to keep on spinning. I am more of an advocate for doing what you feel than following socially acceptable guidelines.
Twirl. Run. Scream. Shine. Hide. Discover. Clash. Sparkle. Tumble. Crash. Embrace.
Spent the past few weeks in NY (love to my friends who kept me off the streets and gave me shelter and so many hugs). I miss the City. I miss the madness almost as much as I hate it. The needle is constantly bobbling on my scale of “broken” to “inspired” when it comes to weighing the pros and cons of my life in Manhattan.
I’ve only been gone a few months, but in this short time so much has changed — the people and places look different. I am so happy to see that many of my dear friends have made adjustments, working to improve themselves for the better in taking progressive steps toward their own version of fulfillment. Not that I ever thought of my real friends as anything short of awesome, but it just isn’t easy there. I had to escape to start making significant improvements, and there’s still a long road ahead. But the important thing is that we’re moving, and that, in itself, should be viewed as a beautiful thing…even if it does feel a little weird. Reminds me of these words from Azar Nafisi:
“You get a strange feeling when you leave a place, like you’ll not only miss the people you love, but you miss the person you are at this time and place because you’ll never be this way ever again.”
It is true, in my experience. The strange feelings, the nostalgia, and the hope that accompanies knowing the future can be whatever you want it to be.
So instead of stressing about the zigs and the zags, I will go ahead and keep on trying to embrace it all. And I will do so in my own unique way, knowing that nothing is going to be the same as it is right now, but feeling comfort in believing that the best is yet to come.
*head to toe: Freyrs retro sunglasses (more cat-eye styles here), Pologeorgis fur vest (must have layering piece, similar styles here), All Saints leather jacket (more rad leather jackets here), Strathbery Tote, LA Made Elija Trouser, Acne leather booties
Photos by Lydia Hudgens
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